Saturday, December 20, 2008

I am... Meaner Than Ever

Like, don't blame me if Im turning into a bitter person. I dunno why but I can't trust anyone anymore. Sometimes I feel like slapping people's face. Im probably getting fired from my job because of my mean-ness. I think my inner me is just annoyed with things. Like sometimes I feel like everything that happened recently just happened at the wrong time, and it's a bitch.

Lemme tell you what happened yesterday at work. A fat old guy wanted me to find him a pair of trousers. So I measured him, and he was a size 46 or 118 cm. So Im like yeah make sense, he's huge. So I gave him one he wanted and when he tried it, he said to me, I think you measured me wrong. It was too big for him. He said he's swimming in it. I thought, sinking, not swimming. I gave hima a size 112, still too big for him. And one of the experienced people who worked with me that day whispered to me, "he doesn't look 118cm"

I said to him, 118cm is the biggest we stock, like can people get bigger than that guy?

Slap me across my face. Hahaha nah, I think Im being self-destructive by making myself hateable. Dunno, slap me across my face!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

What Will I Buy?

Hey I was gonna buy a new laptop as a christmas present for Tim. Well now that we broke up, what should I get for myself instead?

Lui Hon for Von




Sunday, December 14, 2008

My Furst Fur Thing!!!

For those of you who knows that I was getting a fur scarf from Lui Hon for Von, and the story behind it, guess what? I finally got it!!! Im so in Looooooove with it, love it, love it! I also got some photos, like a sneak preview of his winter 2009 collection, which I will upload them soon. Anyway, here it is my fuuuuuuuuuur scaaaaaaaarf!



Saturday, December 13, 2008

Photofunia Fun

OK, a few months ago, a friend of mine put up some photos in her blog one of them being me and her looking drunk, on a huge billboard. I thought she edited the photo herself. Until may be about a week ago, Salvatore found out it was from photofunia.com where you can choose the kind of layout you wanna put your photo on, upload the photo and they do all the editing for you. It's very easy and I have to say that the editing job is really good. These are my favourite two.


You Can't See What I See

Random drawings I made today and the other night. It all started when me and Mary went to Coles for our weekend grocery and I cursed her umbrella again, halfway to Coles it broke, it bent and looked like a flower. Anyway, here they are...

Friday, December 12, 2008

Undertone, Alluva Bar

Fuck me hard. It couldve been the perfect day to go out for a nice coffee and read a book. But the weather is fucking with me. Thing is, I was sober the night before so it couldve been fantastic. But instead I got stuck at home after dressing up coz we don't have fucking umbrella. And yes of course 3 episodes of Desperate Housewives and fucking pizza delivery.

Went to Alluva for Undertone, because Jeyda is working there. Fuck me again, it rained again. And honestly I'm not a fan of the event, but I was happy to be there for her and Vin. Ended up going to Toff and 2 lychee martinis. Bugga de zoom, I was drunk again. I mean, don't blame me, Toff does make one of the best martinis. Just beautiful. And me and Vin started talking heart to heart, I think he's such a great guy. Im very proud of him.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Non-Alco Night

I was sober at a club last night. How cool is that, I finally enjoy clubbing for the dancing again. And I realised that guys were eye-ing me that night, but I think I scared them hahahaha. Or may be they were just thinking "that guy is a freak". I dunno, but I have fun. But I think Ive seen all the guys in Melbourne, may be it's time to move somewhere else.

By the way that Indo-designer-wannabe was there. What the fuck was he thinking, like he's short and look like a dump of muscles. Hmmm dont you think that designers should know the very basic of what's beautiful?

I decided not to come to Africa with Rick. First because Im broke, and second I think it would be too much for me. I nees sometime you know. He's leaving on the 20th, and I think he'll be back in mid January. Im gonna miss him, like I dont know how it's like not having him around!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

New Life Resolution

I've been thinking, why do we need to wait for new year's eve to make a resolution? I thought may be I should do it right now, considering things are changing a lot in my life lately anyway. I usually started my resolution with some diet or healthy lifestyle thing. But I think this time I know what would be first on my list.

1. Be smart. Use you head. Be strong again.

I feel like I have made a big mistake by falling for someone, letting someone into my life. I wasn't like that. I used to be a thinker and I liked the way I was before. The thing is, this break up is so hard for me. I dont think I wanna go through the same thing again. At least not for a while. I want to be strong again, I wanna be how I used to be. And plus, I've seen my sister getting so stupid after falling for a fucking loser. I've seen my friends acting irrationally for their boys or girls, I dont want to be like that. I kept thinking why did I let myself go through this. It was a big mistake. I shouldnt've let myself into thinking that I was something you feel certain in your life when the truth is you don't even know what you want. You don't know if you want to be with me. Look at me now, what am I doing? I get drunk a lot, I dont talk to my friends as much as I used to be, I can't even be there for my friends. And that's not me. I don't want to be like this. I can't believe I let you ruin me and my contentment. I question myself a lot, and that never happened before. I just want to be the logical me again, and Im gonna build myself up again. And I hope that will happen soon.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Still a Little Bit In Love With You

I Love Gossip Girl

I cant blame people for liking that show. But not for me please. Like, I can't like it.

Currently, I don't like you (you, not Gossip Girl).

Dream on people.

Nightmares, What Does It Mean?

Been having funny weird scary dreams. What does it mean? Can anyone tell me?

I dreaming that I could fly. And I did it a few times. Two nights ago I dreamt that I could fly, and it was soooo real. Like I could feel myself floating and trying to concentrate to move to the direction Im going to. It was soooo cool. The shit thing about that dream was, in my dream, I was flying away from zombie-like people. They bite you, they dont eat you, they just bite. But then you turn into one of them. They're like zombie but they can think, they act like human being.

I was flying and avoiding everyone, I got to a tree branch, I met a friend there. A person I could trust. Then he somehow convinced me to carved some word on my chest, not deep just on my skin, but it bled. I flew again somewhere and I realised that the knife I used was contaminated with the zombie blood. So I was turning into one of them. Only I was better than everyone else, I was the first one of them who could fly...

And last night I dreamt that I was dating a model / some kind of adult movie star. He was hot, tall skinny and all. But then somehow I got in this jungle, and it was full of this HIV positive chimpanzee. And they bite you, and you can get HIV. Fucking scary eh?

I could only thing of one similarity to both of my dreams. I was running from something contagious. I dont know what it means. Tell me?

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Sunday Mess

Sunday morning, woke up just somehow I felt like crap. I was once again thinking about the break up and whether I made the right decision. Plus, Im broke. I thought I'd just spend the whole day at home. But Denny was meeting up with Amar. I thought again I havent seen Amar for a while, and he just came back from Mumbai, he was there when the bombing happened. So I decided to go and see how he was doing.

Walking to Ca De Vin at GPO, and the way there I met an old friend. This guy is nice but he's kind of like a hater. Not a hater, he just doesn't like people who goes out a lot and things. He used to call me socialite who only spend parents money. But he asked me out once. I didnt want to. So after the break up, I really feel like I should look like Im doing good. I dont want him to have that 'I feel so sorry for you' look. Like I dont want him to say 'told you, you were better off with me'.

I met him, and the first thing he said was "are you drunk?". What is wrong with me? I wasn't drunk, I didnt even drink the night before. Argh. May be alcohol has finally sits in my system permanently. Fuck it, I ignored him. Finally met Amar, he looks like he's doing good, he looked fresh. But for the next 2 hours we didnt end up talking about the Mumbai incident, instead we talked about break up and things. I mean, Amar was considering about getting back together with Bachir, Denny just broke up, and all I could do is just being the strong me, and the cynical me while I enjoyed some glasses of red.

And then Amar asked me to come to Cynthia's farewell party at Belgian Beer Cafe. Went there and it was so good meeting everyone. However, I felt like some of them still give me that pity look. And I know they do that because they care about me. But to me it's better when people see me as a strong person, it just somehow makes me stronger. I went to the bar to get a pint of Hoegarden. I didnt know that the serve would be massive. I mean it was a massive glass of beer. I could feel some people looking at me, and they all said, what the fuck! Thats massive! So it was, a chance to show people that Im doing better but instead I made them think that Im not coping with it well, and that Im like the biggest alkie. Oh well, I think Im ok. I probably should stop drinking so people know that Im ok.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Fur The Sake Of It

It was slightly raining, at 6.30 pm when I get to my fashion designer's friend's studio. We were there to discuss about his latest collection, inventory tracking stuff and other things I need to do for him this coming week.

I was actually really tired from work, my brain didn't work properly and I didn't have a lot of ideas that I could contribute to the meeting. But then, there was it. A black cowl scarf. Made from black fur that looks to me like faux-fur, black, shiny black. I put it on and I fell in love with it. I asked the designer if I could buy one for a wholesale price, and that is half of the retail price less the GST. He said yes!

But then there was these two guys who also attended the meeting, they started talking about how the green peace would throw a can of fresh red paint to me. I said no they wont, it's fake fur. It wasn't. It was made from real goat fur.

I know I've told you that I decided to be against fur for fashion. But I can't help it, it was too good. I gotta have it. And may be the next thing that happened, only made me wanted even more.

Ok, so there was a friend of mine who was there as well. Just say his name is Carlos. He's married to a guy, probably one of the best activist in the world. Sorta person who believe that as an artist he should be working for his art, not for someone else. And for that working is bad, and he decided to live in a squad, so he doesn't have to pay the rent. May be so he could save up some money. NOT. So that he doesnt support capitalism, and he would educate people, and he would be able to drink more.

Carlos had talked to me about his boyfriend's thing. We think it was just crazy, but I mean, I gotta admire someone who believes in saving the world. But that afternoon, Carlos was in his best activist mode. I asked him, would it be ok if I wore the fur scarf. He said he's a vegetarian.

I said, I dont wear fur, I think. He just smile, and Im telling you he is a good guy, what's happening here wasn't an arguement, not a fight, it was just a friendly conversation. And so I told him, I used to be number 1 Anna Wintour supporter, I believe that people should be allowed to wear fur for fashion. He was like, really? I said yes, and I told him how I decided to be anti-fur. Then I asked him, why is it not ok about wearing fur. I eat meat. So if I eat meat, wearing fur would not do worse?

He said, "It was about giving respect to animal. And wearing fur isn't the same with wearing cotton. You turn an animal into a material, you kill them for fashion. It's not necessary."

I said, "But I eat meat anyway. And it's not like goat is almost extinct."

He said, "So you're saying that these animals, each animals, have different value to each other?"

I said, "Yes, for example, a caterpillar. Who likes a caterpillar? It's gross."

He said, "Frogs eat caterpillar."

I said, "But they're just animals, we're human."

He said, "That's like you value people differently from some other people."

I stoped there, but in my head I thought, I honestly value human more than an animal. I dont think human and animals are the same. If I had to safe someone's life by eating souvlaki for the whole week, I would.

I said, "But people have always eaten meat. Even the cavemen wear fur."

He said, "They did, but they also rape and kill people."

I screamed, "You're so meaaaaan! It's not the same!!"

He just smiled.

Then I asked him "How did you started being a vegetarian?"

He said, "I started that because I believe that meat industry is bad. It's like ciggarette industry. They sell this poison, get people addicted and make money from it. I used to smoke, I quit for that reason, and I did the same thing being a vegetarian. I just don't agree with the meat industry. The media is full with consumerism, and people want to have a chunky steak for dinner. And for that, they have to kill animals."

I said, "But if you stop people from eating meat, then the farmer's would suffer. For example, farmers in Argentina. They're main occupation is dairy and meat industry. What would they do for a living?"

He said, "They should just start planting vegetables."

I said, "What? But you know how much it would cost them to change into planting vegetables?"

He said, "It wouldn't cost that much. With animal they would always have to feed them, sell them after years. That costs more than changing into vegetables farming."

I said, "No it would cost more. They need to sell the equipment. Buy the new equipment for the new farm etc. And the thing is, it would be more efficient to keep doing what they'd done for a long time. It would also be more productive and profitable. I mean, if planting vegetables are better, don't you think that people would started planting them anyway?"

He just shook his head. "Then they just need to suffer a little bit. Some of them may suffer, but we know that we're saving our planet."

And then the meeting started. So we couldnt continue our conversation. But in my head, I thought I don't know a lot of things about the world, and I dont even know if capitalism is bad. But I studied economics in uni. And I think in a free economics, people would do what's more efficient, effective, and profitable for them. I mean, like Argentina, they have comparative advantage in meat industry. It costs less to produce meat products there, and so people would produce meat there. It would be cheaper for them too from economics of scales and all those resources and distribution links that they have earned all this years. At the end they would be better off, and other countries can enjoy their fine meat as well.

And about the global warming, I believe that we should try our best to save our planet. But I dont believe in sacrificing some groups of people for that. I think if we have to sacrifice people, the people from poor and developing countries would get the most impact. And it's not fair. I think that people should just be conscious about things like, switching off the power point, use less water, recycle, save energy, something like that. I believe if we all do it together, we can save our planet.

At the end of the night, I decided, I would buy the fur scarf. Im a fashion person, I work for fashion, I love fashion, I would do all things that I can to support the fashion industry.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Randomest Night

Pfeuih... Last night was weird and random.
Went to Pogo, bitchy door bitch ass fat crap.
the rooftop was good, cheap drink
crowd was teenyboppers trying to be indie
its like bogan goes indie, clickclik mixed with bogan school
looking good enough to get my photos taken my photographers
went downstairs for the dance floor
good music, dj tranterco is back from america
went to fucking IQ
Mary couldnt go in coz she lost her passport
and um fucking bastards bouncers
went to this awesome blue tile bar across the street
awesome band, sexy.
Finally talked to Mary about things
went to Yah Yah's
Mary and Riri left
Me and Kiki join Denny at IQ
Met my ex there he looked so skinny
It was really weird
Had the worst pick up line in the world
"can you cook?" fucking hell
He should know that this is not an interview
to get a new maid or something, bitch
went home, get McD drive thru and
love you long tiiiiiiiime!

Baby You Drive Me Crazy

I think I always or at least most of the time I get the best guys. I dont settle for average when I know I can get the best. Right everyone?

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

BBF

Last tuesday, my bestfriend broke up with his boy. He's doing fine, I mean, he is sad but they broke up in good term and it seems to me that they're going to be good friends soon. And this could be because his ex is a really nice guy, and the reason why they broke up was 'lack of emotional intimacy' which both of them agreed.
He came over, and my friends were there, and he told us the story. And you know what's wrong? I didnt know what to say to him. I should be a fucking expert in this considering I had my own break up 2 months ago. I felt like I am not emotionally available for it.
Hmmm actually I've always been the cold heart bitch kinda person. I dont cry a lot, and for some reason I cant cry in front of people. Like I dont pretend to be strong, but my tears just dont come out when Im around people. And I guess that's how I deal with my problems. The thing is, I have always been emotionally available for my friends, now this. What is this, what am I becoming?
And the next day when I woke up, I finally realised that I havent even been there for my other bestfriend, she's also my housemate. I know she's going through a lot, but I didnt even give sometime to catch up with me. I've been busy with my other friends, getting drunk, and going out. What am I doing?
I can't even deal with it when people complaint about little things, I would be like, get over it. I can't deal with your shit right now. And I dont give a shit about it. I dont care if I'm being the biggest bitch right now, because I feel like I have always been it.
And I woke up with morning, I think I know why I've been like this. Because I still need sometime for myself to recover from the break up. I need to deal with my own shit before I can help others. I mean, I love my friends, and I wish I could be there for them, but give me a little time, and I will be there for them soon. Mwa.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Hungover Talk

To all of you my mwa mwa.
I think it's ok to cry
It's ok to spoil yourselves for a while
It's ok to sleep in
But I have decided today
That I'm gonna start walking again
Im not running, just slowly walking
Im just going to make sure
That my life is going on again :)

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Drunkasian Babes Dot Com

OK me Riri and Kiki are planning to start a group on facebook and we gonna call it drunkasianbabes. Its for asian hotties who like to get drunk and have fun, sorta like girls gone wild. Wait in this case hot asian guys are also included. Not only that but its also for the fans as well hahahah.

Oh what am I talking about? Oh well let me know if you think it's a good idea.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

New Casts

Ok hear me out.

Thursday, going out with Vin, Greig, and even Joesh.

Friday, Rafael came over and chat till 1 in the morning.

Saturday, went out to a pirate party, dressed up like a pirate. Met Ed Jason Levana Estelle Jay Emma Chris and Matthew!

Grocery Shopping is a form of Relaxation

Currently:

getting used to working
spending money like a moron again
listening to Al Green's Let's Stay Together,
for the sake of remembering someone
who was DJ-ing and played that song
for me
loving how Kiki and Riri been coming over
to my place every night for the past week
bored of my working suit
been meeting new friends
finally cooked sauerkraut
loving Kimbo coffee and
been having 2 cups each day
loving my new parfume
and um I feel scared of some activists
especially people who would
judge me because I dont know
lots of things about the world
worried about amar and his family cause
they're in Mumbai
aaaah, nothing I just wanna sleep.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Thursday Finally

Yay! So I got paid yesterday, and ummm finally getting my haircut today, and Im going out tonight!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Quotes Of The Month

I've been spending time with Mr and Mrs Oprandi and here are their lines I found so interesting and I dont think I ever heard them from anyone ever in the world.


"When you live in a place for a long time you get so attached to it. I mean, you can live in hell, you get used to it and you find it hard when you have to move to somewhere else."
Anibal Oprandi

"I don't want to go to heaven. Heaven is boring."
Putu Arnany Oprandi

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Stronger Than Me

Hmmm I realised that I cant expect people to be as strong as me. Although Im not that strong either. I just dont feel it, but when I finally feel things, I am really misserable. And honestly Im not those people who pretend to be strong, I just dont feel things when things happen. It's like a delayed reaction. But I do sometimes avoid all the sensitive things, like I dont talk about sentimental things, I dont listen to 'our' song, I avoid pity party because I think those things just break down you strong shield. It just tear up your protection, so why do it?

I had a thought before, but may be I have unconsciously thought of it many times before. I think I wont be able to be with anyone for a while. I am really bitter at the moment. I feel fine, but sometimes I worry about myself. I worry about him too. And I think it is not my job to look after him anymore (I always try to remind myself that it was not my fault, and that it just didnt work) but I really cant expect him to be as strong as me. I dont know, but I know I will cry if I pick up the phone and talk to him. It is too soon, too soon. I need to build myself first before I get to help anyone.

I hope know it well enough to look after yourself. I hope you're fine, Bung.

My Perfect Saturday

It's been raining and windy and super cold. I woke up at 11 with a massive hangover from last night. My left bottom part of my chest hurt, I hope it's not emphysima. At first I thought It'd be boring to stay in, but forgot how I missed my room (been sleeping on the couch for a month), so I just stayed in bed, watching dvd. I got hungry, made myself some laksa, ate it, and then went back to my room, under my blanket. Then I made some drawings. I didnt really like them, but I would always remember them as my rainy stormy windy cold perfect saturday drawings :)

I love life, I wanna enjoy things, I wanna have fun. I love me.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Im Runway-ing to Mars!

Currently:

cant wait till wednesday and thursday
coz im getting my pay and haircut
also looking forward to going out
looking fly hahahaha.
I love that song Mars by Fake Blood
I just kept thinking of fierceness when i hear it
hmmm I kinda wanna go to sexpo
just to see how its like
i have problems with insecure people
Like I mean, its normal and Ive been there
but geez its so tiring dealing with their shit
I mean, whats with people calling to
apologize for something he thought he did wrong
the fuck with that get a life
and whats with people making me as their
benchmark, or standard or like an
approval board. Get fucked.
I dont live for people like that
get over yourself seriously
I have a life too you know
I have feelings too you know
and just so I can say this to people
and my friends who had said to me
that Im lucky that Tim had wanted me back
Im not angry but I just thought
why did you think it was any easier?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Whore, Ho, Homo

me currently:

want a haircut
need moisturiser
need new shaving kit
want to buy paintings
getting married with Mat
cant wait to wear-
my new Jack London suit to work
need lotsa money
being so bitter about those people-
who think they know how to save the world
attending too many birthday dinner and drinks
hate the heat
missing air con
want new clothes
want new ties
want new shirt for work
need money to renew my pilates membership
need to lose weight
love my friends
dont want my friends to leave
just nervous about work

Friday, November 7, 2008

You and The Night, and The Alcohol, and The Music.

I'd seen him a lot of times before. He'd asked me out before but I rejected, I was with my ex. I didnt even know his name.

So last night we met again. His name is Rick. After hours of drunk chat, and alcohol, and cigarettes, I found something really interesting about. I meant it was nothing special, but I found it so liberating to talk to this guy who only work as a bartender, didnt go to uni, but saving his money to travel, and then after that he's going to work again and hopefully earn enough money to go to uni and do a course in Marine Biology.

I somehow started thinking, what's the point of stressing out about getting a good job right now, when you have plenty of time to do it. And while you're doing it you also enjoy life. You live and you learn, you experience things and you're free.

I think he found it funny that my parents still pay for everything but Im acting like a robot. I dont really feel things because I've planned all things I want and need to do in my life. We kinda joke about that. And another shot of tequila. And we made out, another shot of sambuca and we left the place, holding hand, kissing. Make out again behind a container near section 8. And I just wanna stop thinking. I wanna feel things, I know that I dont have to get things in control because I know and he knows that there's nothing to worry about. Another shot of sambuca somewhere else, and then we planned to go to Africa in January.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Fill the Blanks...

Jarome is feeling SAD so he ..........


swipe himself some happyness...

Hope Vs Fear

I've been screwed up in my head this past few days. It all happened on friday night when I decided to finally pick up my ex's phone call. I did, and he was in a bad condition, he wanted to get back together. He said he made a big mistake. He thinks that we can start it all over again. And so I've been thinking what would be the best decision for me. I mean, I didnt want to be selfish, but I had to protect my heart. He dumped me, remember?

It was like a small election, heart vs head. My heart told me that I still love him dearly, I missed him. And even more, it hurt like hell to think that what happened between us would never happen again. I was tortured by all the memories, the times when we laughed together, Laksa King moment, the breakfast at Fitzroy, stupid things that happened, even times when he annoyed me. It all just kinda killed me slowly. My heart told me that things would be easier to just get back together with him.

But the other party, my head told me all the rational things. And I knew that I'd always been a logical person, this was in fact the first time I find it hard to decide between heart and head. I felt like, I could never be in a relationship, thinking that there isnt any certainty. I mean, he broke up with me because he wasn't sure about me. I didnt know how it must feel to be in one while thinking that he could give up on us again anytime. Plus, this break up would be a weak foundation for our second relationship.

So today, while America decided to elect Obama (Go Obama I love YOU!) I decided that I would go for my head. I chose change. I chose hope over fear, so I didnt have to be dealing with constant fear of him giving up on me again. I hope that things are going to get better after I get over him.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Great People, Fugly Relationships

What is it that great people always somehow get into ugly relationships?

I'll give you examples.

1. Miss Editor, great friend of mine. Dated an ugly Indonesian boy. He asked her out, but then he couldnt commit to it. He simply put her after his soccer team, and his friends. At the end he was scared of meeting her? He hid from her? He couldnt even break it like gentlemen. F*cking asshole.

2. Miss Friendly Neighbour. A guy dated her, asked her to be in relationship with him. She said I need sometime, and the next day she found out he just got into a relationship with her bestfriend. Her bestfriend didn't know that he approached Ms Neighbour though. Full on another asshole title for this moron.

3. Miss Smart Bestfriend. My bestfriend for 7 years. A guys asked her out, and she was initially scared of being in a relationship, but she thought she'd give love a chance this time. 3 months later, she started to fall in love with him, only to find him cheating with another girl. Asshole + worst in bed of the century.

4. Miss Sexy Designer. My bestfriend's sister. Hot and successful girl, but stuck in a long 7 years of fugly relationship, and I mean it involves him cheating, and abusing her. Manipulative asshole.

Ah thats all for now. Tell me if you have some stories, or just tell me if Im wrong.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Dream, Race and Reality.


Remember the day when you were naive and young? I remember mine. I've always been a dreamer, and I still am a dreamer. However, things change, you live your life, and somehow the part of you that dreams a lot try to catch up with the reality once you get older.

We dream about our future, our dream job, dream house, and for most people they also dream about their love story. I mean, it is like that moment when you catch yourselves feeling like you're starring in a movie. I had mine. And sometime I still think that it's too movie-ish to be true. But it happened.

It all started in a house party, sometime in August 2005. I met him there, average looking and he was movie production student. And I was a first year uni student who took theatre studies in high school. He offered me to be in his short movie. I thought it was just pick up line. But this whole thing intrigued me, and sort of think that he was very interesting. But then the evil guy came, he was a friend and he told me that my Mr Dream was a promiscuous bastard who slept with everyone. And I trusted evil guy. I didnt end up helping him for his production.

A month later, Mr Dream invited me to his movie screening at Loop. Ah when I think of it Melbourne felt so fresh that time. I mean, may be Im just bored with everything. Anyway, back to the story I had that getting to know moment with him, and he invited me to come to him place. Not for sex of course, just hang out. But I said no, I was too scared to get to know him because what evil guy told me. Honestly I was interested, very interested, but I thought I needed to protect my heart. So instead during out chat, I told him a big lie. I told him the type of person I like, and I told him someone so different from him. I said, I like guys who looked like guys from Jet.

So nothing happened. And a few month later, we met again. We hang out, and at one point we grab my hand, and held it firmly while walking along Brunswick street. It was that movie moment when the guy hold the girl's/boy's hand, and it was firm, full of confidence. It was almost like saying "it's okey, you're with me now. Everything's fine because we're here together."

However, evil guy was there. And he ruined everything again. At one point when Mr Dream was ordering drinks, evil guy went to him and asked him out for a coffee. And I found out, I overheard what happened. The problem is, I was so naive that time, and again I was scared if Mr Dream was a bastard in disguise. I decided not to continue our little "Brunswick Street Walk" story that night. I went home confused, I didnt know what happened.

Next day, evil guy called me. He said Mr Dream didnt go for a coffee with him. But I was still scared of him. So I didnt call him, I ignored what could've been a nice little story between me and my Mr Dream.

A few months later I met a friend of evil guy, he told me the truth. That evil guy was obsessed about Mr Dream. And that Mr Dream is not a promiscuous bastard. He was a good guy, and in fact, he liked me. I felt horrible knowing the truth. I couldnt believe I led my fear ruin a chance to be with my first biggest crush ever.

So, I tried to catch up with him. And that night, I found out he already dated someone else. I was too late. A week later, after realising that it was over between us and that I should just not see him for a while, I was invited to a friend's birthday. Somewhere in Melbourne, a bar that I'd never been to. And then another movie moment happened. I somehow met him there, with his boy. And that was it, I decided to move on, and stop thinking about what could've happened between us.

Months later, I met him again in a friend's party, and he was single. The only problem was, he was moving to Queensland. He got his dream job, and I was so proud of him. During the time he was in Queensland, I met him once by a chance in Melbourne. Very random. It was so bizarre It was too much, I even got to the point at least for 4 times that I dreamt about him and I would see him sometime soon after.

It got even more random, I met him in Kuala Lumpur. Out of nowhere he was there, and we were in the same plane. He told me he was moving back to Melbourne. So I was waiting for him in Melbourne. He moved back, but somehow I thought Im through with hoping that we could start everything from the beginning. And one night, I met another Great guy. Great guy and I dated, only for 2 weeks before I went back to Indonesia for 2 months.

It was in the afternoon, a few hours away from my flight. I was walking home, and I met Mr Dream again. We ended up having dinner, and caught up. It freaked me out that sometimes he understood me better than anyone. But I was dating Mr Dream. So I decided to move on.

I ended up being in a great relationship with Mr Great. And he was the first guy to guide me, to teach me not to be afraid of being with someone. But things happened. And we broke up 8 months later. Just a few days later, I randomly bumped into Mr Dream again. It was cool, I think of him as a friend, may be because I just broke up with Mr Great, and I still loved him. Another movie moment, Mr Dream was moving to UK. He got his dream job again.

I kept thinking that it was such a cute, sweet little story. How we always meet each other, and yet somethings always keeps us for being together. But I realised it is all just a dream. Reality is nothing like that. Reality is, Im still hurt from the break up with Mr Great. And My head is racing to the reality point. I have leave my sweet dream, and catch up the reality.

So that day, I went to Mr Dream's farewell picnic. I looked at him, may be for the last time, I looked at my dream that may be one day we would finally be together. But I realised it was all just dream. It was sweet but It wasnt real. I said goodbye, and that was the reality. That it was nothing. It doesnt matter to me anymore. I woke up, I saw the reality, and Im in such a mess. But I am going to face it.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

My Song!!!

For you all who knows what's happening to me lately. Ima say Im fine and I love this song!!!




Mary J Blige - Just Fine Lyrics

You know I love music
And every time I hear something hot
It makes me wanna move
It makes me wanna have fun
But it’s something about this joint right here
This joint right here
Its makes me wanna…..Woooh

Let it go……
Can’t let this thing called love get away from you
Feel free right now, going do what you want to do
Can’t let nobody take it away, from you, from me, from we
No time for moping around, are you kidding?
And no time for negative vibes, cause I’m winning
It’s been a long week, I put in my hardest
Gonna live my life, feels so good to get it right

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I aint gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
Keep your head up high
In yourself, believe in you, believe in me
Having a really good time, I’m not complaining
And I’m a still wear a smile if it raining
I got to enjoy myself regardless
I appreciate life, I’m so glad I got mine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
Aint worried about you and what you gonna do
I’m a lady so I must stay classy
Got to keep it hot, keep it together
If I want to get better
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

I aint gon’ let nothing get in my way
(I ain’t gone let nobody bring me down, no, no, no)
No matter what nobody has to say
(No way, no way, no way)
I ain’t gon’ let nothing get in my way
No matter what nobody has to say

Feels so good, when you’re doing all the things that you want to do
Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new
It’s a really good thing to say
That I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I won’t change my life, my life’s just fine

So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
I ain’t gonna let you kill it
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just…..

Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
Just fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, ooooh
You see I wouldn’t change my life, my life’s just fine

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Sketches. Materialist Inspired.

15th October 2008

I was walking home, listening to Kanye's Flashing Lights, one of my most favorite songs ever. I love, I fucking love that song, I love the line, "She dont believe in shooting stars, but she believes in shoes and cars..." Damn, I love it, love the beat, love the video, it's very powerful and kinda overwhelming to me. And somehow when I listen to this song, I let myself to admit that I want to be rich, I want to make lots of money one day. I dream about it. In fact I always admire that kind of story about poor people who work really hard and to finally achieve their dream.



I think it's such a powerful story. I was then inspired by this imaginary story in my head. Story of a poor child, raised with the parents' ambition that he/she will make millions. So they get themselves into college, graduated with excellent grades, and landed a multimillion dollar job. Some educate themselves, learn about cultures, become social-climber, sort of like the modern day of Holly Golightly, then marry a millionaire. Some do both. It's a story about dream, ambition, transformation, and power.

I started sketching today, and um I want to portray the ambition, the youthness, transformation, and they're hardwork. Initially I want to make the looks very bold to show the contentment and confidence, but for the second thought, considering the economics condition and people's confidence, I think that these people would have a little bit of insecurities. Such as like, they fear that the money and power that they gained would somehow gone, so there isnt gonna be an end to they're hardwork. I think that Im gonna show this by making some of the piece slightly over the top, like a decoy, to distract people from their actual fear and insecurities. Anyhow, they're only sketches, just some ideas. May be I will show you the whole final drawing when I finish. Only If I feel confident about it. Ok?

Anyway, I thought this song would suits the materialisticness, like the plasctisness, and ambition to become riiiiiiiiich...





Ah anyway the first sketch I was thinking of Holly Gollightly slash Rita G on Kanye's video. Like how cool is thinking that modern day Holly killed Kanye?

Monday, October 13, 2008

America's Next Tyra's Mini Me

I've been watching America's Next Top Model Cycle 11, and I really like it. I like Marjorie, Lauren Brie (out) Elina, and McKey. Something kinda annoy me though, and as much as I think that the show would be just plain crap if Tyra stoped doing it, but it comes across to me that it has become too 'self-indulgent' for her. I mean, its like the whole show is just made to talk about her past modelling career, and to admire herself. Ok, firstly, look at the opening credit, Tyra's on it for almost half of it, when the competition was meant to be about the model hopefuls. More? Ok, in the first episode there was a part when they supposedly have a perfect model maker machine thingy, and it broke, and what came out of it? Tyra Banks everyone! It's like them saying, Tyra is the perfect model. Fact is, she's not even a model anymore. She doesnt look like a model anymore. More? Ok, in the last episode when she was demonstrating the signature pose, and she went on about her eyes as her signature pose, I was like, yeah right. It was all about Tyra. Too much things about Tyra. Even worse, Tyra always talks about the top model quality, and she often mention, personality, about the plus size, and smile with your eyes. I think she's just talking about herself. Top model means having Tyra's quality. And so, it is not a modelling competition, it's Tyra Banks-alike competition. May be they should call it America's Next Top Tyra's Mini Me. And Im not surprised why none of the winner are that successful. None of them are labelled top model in real life. Ah, I like the show though.




Friday, October 3, 2008

Entertain Me Please

The Cribs - Men's Needs (CSS remix)



The Whitest Boy Alive - Golden Cage (Fred Falke Remix)

I'm such a mess...

Hi all

just wanna say I feel like Im such a mess lately. I need a job. I feel so bored 24/7 I feel like my life is so dull at the moment. I dunno.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Love Love Jamie Lidell

I love him! I dont really know how long he's been singing, but I first find out about him in one of my chillout session album, like 3 years ago. And this song was my favourite runway song ever. Check this out.



And then I found out more about like a few weeks ago in a friends house party, and I really think that he's just better than ever. His voice is more soulful, more mature, and love the songs. Im planning to get his album for sure. Check out my favourite songs so far.



and



By the way dont you think he's like cute in a quirky kinda way? Ok if you like him, but the album ok.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

No InnerPeace At The Moment

Hey Ho's

Im just totally annoyed with shit. I dunno I feel grumpy. I hate this shitty keyboard im using atm. Fuck that shit, i wanna just break it. And excuse my fucking swearing. I dont even know what else Im gonna say. BUt Im thinking of changing my Blog's name, like I want something realer. Something real you know. Its like not just talking shit and being like supposedly good things, I wanna just be real not like some highschool kids talk. Nothing like Tyra Banks Show, just being able to say if you're fat, you're fat, instead of "one of my mission is to change people's perspective about beauty." Just say it, Kiss My Fat Ass.

I'm gainning weight like crazy. I can finally say, I used to be one of those lucky people who eats a lot and stay thin. Ah shut me up, im trying that french diet.

I dont like people who just say things for the sake of being politically correct without actually knowing why it is the right thing and without actually believing it. Hello, kinder kids can do that, so be smart and mean what you say.

Ah Im finally going to renew my fashion sense while trying to lose weight. Im so bored here, i feel like the first thing Ima do when Im back would be, getting some drinks alone in section 8, passed out just right when Im home, so I dont have to fucking deal with my the new and great deco since I have nothing to do with it. The next day, Art Deco Exhibition in NGV and then probly Stephens Fashion Show. Get drunk again and pass out.

I dunno what Im talking about. Bye, I miss you all and I miss my oldself.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Next Year's

I think Im gonna try to lose 5 kilos and dress up like this next years winter (probably gonna be too late to wear them?)


Monday, August 11, 2008

Ms McSlut - The Holy War part one.

Previously on Ms. McSlut:
There was a new guy in town. He was tall, handsome, rich, and available. This time, Ms McSlut faced her biggest enemy, Ms Starr Von Ebie... Both of them were competing to get this most eligible bachelor; Mr. George S Faaka. Who would be winner?

This morning was the tenth morning for Ms. McSlut to get up at 6 oclock in the morning, 3hours before she had to leave to work. She spent the whole 3 hours to do her make up and hair, and to choose which revealing outfit she was going to wear to work that day. And this she did only to impress Mr Faaka who works in Satch Men at Melbourne Central, only two stories away from where she works; Diva accessories.

She finally chose a pair of her skinny jeans and a red top. No bra. No undy. "I wonder what that wannabe-whore is wearing today." She thought. And that she meant Ms Von Ebie, the girl who thinks she's a celebrity, who works in Napoleon Perdis store also in Melbourne Central. Ever since Mr Faaka started working in Satch Men, Ms McSlut and Ms Von Ebie had been competing to get his attention. And tonight is an important night since Mr Faaka had invited both of them to his birthday drink at Lion Hotel. Ms Slut thought tonight would decide which one of them would get Mr Faaka's heart and win the prize (go home with him) and also hopefully hit the jackpot (multiple orgazmo).

She went to work. Couldnt wait till lunch time. Waiting. And finally lunch time she rushed to the food court, and only to find Ms Von Ebie and Mr Faaka talking to each other.
"Fucking Slut!!!" She screamed in heart.
She decided to come and join the conversation. Unfortunately Ms Von Ebie had done her homework and she had planned her conversation with Mr Faaka. "I joined the World Vision to help kids in Africa. Like its very sad, they dont eat. I feel like it makes me happy to help them."
Mr Faaka replied, "Which country?"
"Sudan." Ms Von Ebie replied with total confidence, "Just like Angie."
And then Mr Faaka started talking about his experience back then in his uni days, being a protesters for human rights violation. Ms Von Ebie was mesmerized, but she didnt know that Mr Faaka did that only to be cool, because being cool makes it easy to get laid.
Ms McSlut realised that she wouldnt be able to join that conversation because she knew nothing about starving kids in Africa, and anything to do with human rights violation. So she left, she cried in the bathroom. She remembered Ms Von Ebie's winning face looking at her like she saw a loser. And worst, she knew she wouldnt get Mr Faaka tonight.
"Forget it. She's a fucking slut!" She convinced herself to get out of the bathroom while wiping
her tears. She fixed her make up, and then she saw a familiar face.
Ms Elle Eghant came out from one of the cubicles. She looked so pretty in her black dress, and long dark hair. Ms McSlut was in a state of awe, but then she feared her. In her history, Ms Eghant was the only person she hates, she envy and she fears. Its because she hates Ms Eghant's fashion sense, but she admited that she looks very pretty, and she envy that prettyness. And, she feared because she knew that behind her calmness, and demure-ness Ms Eghant is a genious, and she knew how to eliminate her rivals the best.
Ms Eghant saw Ms McSlut's sad face, she felt sorry for her, "Are you okay?"
Ms McSlut burst into tears, "Elle, you have got to help me!!!"
to be continued.....

Friday, August 8, 2008

Lucien Thomkins, My Model!

Ok I finally found good video like slide show of Lucien Thomkins. Mwa.

Lomography

I guess it a little late to be a fan of Lomography considering it's already passed the trend, but somehow Im only beginning to get interested in it. I found some great pics and some pages with great Lomo pics, and I started thinking that it'd be cool to have Lomography camera, I want one and I hope I can buy one soon.
Here, some of the pics I really like;






They're from here.



And this awesome one is from this blog.

Ok thats all for now, I wanna get the camera, I hope one day I can upload my own lomo pics.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Video! Sasha Loves This Song!

Hahahaha I can finally put up a video!! I love this song by the way.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Ms McSlut, Mr Faaka and Ms Von Ebie

Okey, another 'what not to do' a.k.a Ms Slutty McSlut. I wrote it on the 8th of October 2006, and it was the last one I wrote... But dont worry coz I've already planned to tell you more stories about Ms McSlut! So wait a while, won't be long. And remember, dont do things she do because its very not-ellegant.


Ms McSlut, Mr Faaka and Ms Von Ebie
There was a new guy in town. He was tall, handsome, rich, and available. This time, Ms McSlut faced her biggest enemy, Ms Starr Von Ebie... Both of them were competing to get this most eligible bachelor; Mr. George S Faaka. Who would be winner?
to be continued...

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

MIFF so far...

Ok Melbourne International Film Festival is happening at the moment. Which one have you gone to and which one are you planning to go see?

Ive seen a few so far. I watched 881 from Singapore which is funny and so much fun to watch, but some of the joke are kinda hard to understand. Like, the Tech-no joke, and copy cat vs Techno cat joke. Watch it and you'll understand what I mean.
And I've watched A Jihad For Love, the title is kinda corny but I think it means a lot for some people. Its a doco about gay muslims from different countries. Its pretty interesting to watch, but I think it's very saaaaad. I nearly cried a few times. Hmmm may be because I can relate to the stories, you know, I've been in a similiar situation; feeling that there's no place for me in this world, and fearing and at the same time feeling angry because its not acceptable for muslims to be gay. Death is the punishment in some countries, and the koran mentions that they're supposed to end up going to hell when they die. Its even more emotional when they use Islamic Prayer as the background sound. Its sooo beautiful. And yet again it's very sad because some of these people believe that they're committing sinful acts. However, I think the doco itself failed to explore more areas under this topic.
Animation (With Dogs), super fun. I found my favourite animation on youtube, but I think they put down the video today... Argh. It's called KJFG no.5 watch it if you could find it.
And last night I watched Shall We Kiss from France. Its sweet, funny, romantic, it's just very fun to watch. I think it's the best I've seen so far.
Next ones I wanna watch are (excuse my poor movie sense); Sita Sings The Blues, Dead Daughters, Gatchy Boy, Otto, Let The Right One In, Jack Brooks: Monster Slayer and I dunno some elses.

Sketches, Native American Inspired

Hey all, I just wanted to show you some sketches I made yesterday. The idea comes from the Native American Indian I just got so inspired by they're outfit, they're really amazing. Anyhow my scanner isnt working properly so they kinda look blurry.



I might upload some more, purely for self-indulgent reason, when I draw some more (wink). And um here are some songs I'd play for my fashion show; The Knife - Marble House, The Cribs - Men's Need, and of course MGMT - Kids...

Friday, July 25, 2008

There's Only One Naomi...

Here's Naomi Campbell for Vogue Italia. I love her. She did a great job in this All-Black Issue. Liya Kebede and Jourdan Dunn are also awesome. But still... There's only one Naomi... I was somehow expecting that all the advertisement will include black models for that edition, but instead you open the first few pages and all the advertisement were done by white models, which makes it feels ironic...


Anyway, here's Naomi Campbell on the cover. Awesome...

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Another 'What Not To Do'

Its something from my old blog, I wrote it on October 02, 2006.

Ms Slutty McSlut, and Krispy Kreme
In the fashion capital of Australia, one lady tried to prove to the whole world that she's Ms. All that thang. She tried so hard to look the best everytime she woke up in the morning. In her mind, she think a lot about how people would think of her if she did this and that to her hair, what would the guys think of her boobs and her booty if she wears this outfit or that outfit. Yes, it was like that in the morning for Ms Slutty McSlut.

One morning she heard about the opening of Krispy Kreme store in corner of Collins and Spencer. She thought that would be the best idea to meet lotsa guys. And she would be able to flirt with them all. So Ms Slutty McSlut went to Krispy Kreme, struttin her stuffs on the way there. She lined up immediately when she saw this easily fuckable guy lining in front of her.

She said, "Excuse me... Do you know that I love krispy Kreme so much..."The cute guy said, "Yes its nice--""Do u know that Krispy Kreme makes me bigger? And I mean bigger and juicy..." Ms Slutty McSlut slightly looked down to see her boobs, and then she checked out her booty. And she laughed.The guy was somehow surprised. That never happened to him before considering he was not a good looking guy and he did not have a job. The last time he got laid was in 1987 when he was in Bon Jovi Super Concert.But he was nice enaugh to ask her, "Miss do you realise what you've just said?"Ms Slutty McSlut nodded sensually. "And I can eat lotsa donuts..."
That was how Ms Slutty McSlut flirt with guys. Random Guys. They talked for a while, while waiting for they're Krispy Kreme. He bought he 2 dozens of original glazed. He said, he'd like to see her getting bigger. And she nodded sensually again. They ended up spending the night together and hot sex, on top.

He thought she was really hot. But he remembered he was married with 5 kids. So he has to leave Ms Slutty McSlut soon after their extremely undeniably fucking hot sex. And Ms Slutty could only looked at him sneaking out from her bedroom. She thought about it and she knew it happened before. She wanted to call her ex-best friend, B, but B would just scream at her (like he always do). So she did her best trick. She finished the whole 2 dozens of donuts and looked at herself in the mirror... what should I do with my hair tommorow and what should I wear? And all of a sudden all her pain was gone. Just like dat.

That was always the days in Ms Slutty McSlut's life...
to be continued....

Funny Eww-ey Facebook Shit.

Hmmm let's make this into the kinda 'what not to do' section. So just dont do this because its very not sophisticated to do what Im going to show you.
I have a friend, well actually not a friend, just someone I know. This guy is probably the most wannabe-est person I ever met in my life. I mean, he just tries really hard to be what he think is 'cool person'. This guy is gay. He wants to be that kinda Anthony Callea gay guy. He's Asian and he works out a lot to get muscles, cut his hair short and spiky... All that shit.
And he's very slutty oh my god slutty. And umm exhibitionist in a way that he likes to expose his private part in public. (Clearly, dont do this if you wanna be sophisticated).
He's on my Facebook. And I had so much fun checking out he's Facebook group he joined. They're all slutty shit. I'll give you some example coz this shit is funny. Oh did I tell you that there's 76 slutty group he's in?
eg. Steam Nudist Group. Naked Appreciation (Nudist). Naturismo & Nudismo. KRIK Nudist. People who love naked men!. Naturist Massage. I LOVE TO SKINNY DIP... at anytime of the day!. Nude in Public. Legalize being Nude in Public. I LOVE WALKING AROUND MY HOUSE NAKED!. and so on.
Hmmm so I made my point, dont do it if you wanna be sophisticated.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Inner-Peace 101

As you have known from the title of my blog, Im also gonna be talking about inner peace.

I think and I know, as we all know, Im an ok looking person. And I am thin, but thats not how I get my inner-peace... I have just recently realised that beautiful face and body doesnt last forever. Like I probably going to end up fat and ugly one day (I hope not). But seriously you have no total control over your beauty. It can just somehow disappear and you cant do anything about it. So its good if people realise that their prettyness is not the most important thing ever.

Having said that, I still do think that doing things to make yourself feel good is important, and a lot of the time it makes us happier. But that shouldnt be the 'that important'. I think people should be proud on what they do and what they can do well, not how well they look. If you know you do what you like doing and you're good at it, you know that noone can take that away from you. Its yours and it makes you happy. This sense of security will ultimately lead to inner-peace. So there it is, one tips of finding inner-peace from me, Bubu Tinuk. Mwa.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Another Attempt To Put Up Video!

I still cant do it. But fuck it, you can just click the link. My Runway Song.

The Curse of Hot Chocolate


Maaaaaaaan. Today's kinda cold. Me and my boyfriend were having good lunch, then we had nothing to do so we made some yummy hot chocolate and both of us just fell asleep on the couch! I swear I could hear myself snorring and sleeping was good. But I couldnt wake up I just wanna sleep. Its the curse of the fucking hot chocolate. Dont buy the Cadbury one, it makes you sleep.


I mean, buy it if you wanna sleep. Its a curse- whatever you know what I mean. Like it just makes you sleep.

Lanvin... I still love you but...

I have to say that Lanvin Mens collection has been one of my favourite this past year. I totally love last year's Spring Summer collection, and the winter's collection is probably my favourite for being unusually innovative with its construction, shape, and the material especially.

And as much as I love it I would have to say that Im a little disappointed with the recent Spring Summer collection. It just look so 'normal'. I mean, I really wouldn't've thought that we would still see pyjamas look again. Hmmm I still love Lanvin though... Hmm I like the colour pallete and its fabrication. I'd say good job to Ossendrijver, but I still prefer last S/S collection...


Spring Summer 2008, my favourites;


and Spring Summer 2009... These are my favourites but I reckon they're not as good as last year's?



Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Bitch Please...

I really dont like this poser loser try hard from Project Runway Australia. Im not even gonna mention his name coz i dont want to make more space for his name on the web. Its total repulsiveness, the hair, and the wannabe attitude (I think he's trying to be Christian Sirriano from America's Project Runway, but bitch please Christian Sirriano is way better than you), the exageration to his campyness, and I think his accent is just repulsive, so repulsive sometimes i think the only thing he should make is thick mouth coat so he can shut it. Actually mask would help too. Also, his design is too commercial. You can probably find them in supre'.

I just hope the judges wont keep him there for long. I hope they dont see him as a good show. I should call fashion agencies and warn them about the grossness of this... something.

Dont We Love Giant Squid?

I just finished watching the giant squid dissection thingy. And ummm wow, so many cool things about it that i never knew. I think its fierce how it has hundreds of sharp teeth, like having hundreds of tiny sharks mouth on its tentacle.

I was just thinking, I think i only knew that giant squid really exist about three years ago. I went with a few friends to Melbourne Aquarium to see the frozen one. And I thought, 'man, this thing is real'

I mean, i thought it was just like a myth, like mermaids and loch ness monster. But giant squids are real? Do people know this from back then, or am I just too stupid to know that?

Ah by the way i had fun watching videos about loch ness monsters on youtube. Just search it, they're cool video. You can tell that some people work so hard to fake it! Just search it, since i still dont know how to upload videos from youtuuuuuuuuube!

Wait, im not done yet. May be, in the past, kinda primitive time, floating dead giant squid was considered a blessing from god. Or most likely to be a sign for fiesta time!!! Imagine one giant squid can feed the whole tribe. Now i want takoyaki.

And didnt we read, Popbitch edition 403 "The Hawaiian creation myth suggests that the octopusis the only survivor from a former alien universe."

Cool animal. Cooooool Animaaaaaaaaaal!!!

Yes and i think the camera guy is cute hehehehehe.

Im getting used to this...

Im dont even know if I could show videos from youtube.com on my blog. Can anyone help me? I feel like this is not sophisticated at all.

Giant Squid Dissection!

Ok this is sooo coooool. Imagine, giant squid. Imagine dissecting it. And you can watch it live online!!!

Visit http://museumvictoria.com.au/ Thursday, 17th july from 11.30! I know it coz an old friend of mine is filming it. Dont miss it.

Project Runway Australia

I've always been a big fan of Project Runway, and now there's the Australian version of it. Guess what, my friend is in it hehehehe. You should watch it even when that mentor guy is just terribly annoying and repulsive. Its on Arena, 8.30 PM Monday. Oh, and check out Lui Hon, he's brilliant. And Im not saying that just because I know him!