I Heart Audrey

Jarome : I'm totes devo

Audrey: Why?

Jarome: Just devo. like heart broken devo.

Audrey: hmmmm it's ok. We have money.

Going To My Boyfriend's Place

Went to see The Horrors

on wednesday night at the corner hotel

it was ok, but the crowd was boring

noone was rocking it

everyone loved the show, but

I think wouldve better with more energy

I went there, Josh was there

we were there together the whole night

when we chat I told him I want to be a trophy wife

he said, I want to be the dominant one

he said, I want to get a trophy wife

and Im like, well you already have a trophy wife

and he was like, yeah I already have a trophy wife

later that night I found out that

his trophy wife didn't like the Horrors

trophy wife likes Madonna and Kylie

I, on the other hand,

like going to gigs with my husband

I cook awesome food

I can make croissant pudding

and I look better than THE TROPHY WIFE

whatever, we caught train together

we planned for coffee the next day

but I missed it because work was so busy

end of the day I met him

"wanna grab a coffee?"

He said, "No I gotta go."

"Why?"

"I'm going to my boyfriend's place. He's sick"

Ah god... Fucking Trophy Wife.

No Turning Back

Hey Babes

I invited my ex to this exhibition opening

It was in Carlton Club, it's called Finding Space

we hang out with friends from work as well

and um no it's all good

we're not back together again

like I respect him and all

Im proud of him

but I know that we're just not meant to be together

I feel like we (especially me) have grown up

so far from how we were before

like he's still the first guy

I have loved unconditionally

and nothing's gonna change that

but it was it

we're just friends now

Im really ready to just move on

and I wish him all the best in the future

mwa mwa.

Deja Vu

Hey Babes

I got invited to my ex's birthday bbq

I thought I should show up

and just be a friend, just be nice

I bought him this cute top from Nathan Smith

I went there planning to only stay for a few hours

Damn, it was scary being there

surrounded by his friends and all

but they were all nice to me

Im talking, really nice to me

Most of them said, it's good to see me again

One of them said, he was sad

when he found out about the break up

The whole thing felt like deja vu

The smell of his house

the wine glasses, the backyard

Everything came back to me

Later that night he gave me back all my stuff

and he gave me his Claude Maus top

that I always wanted

he said, "almost there"

I said, what do you mean?

"Im trying to make it up all the things that I fucked up."

I went home, I didn't realize it was 3am

Love Changes

So I have a crush on this boy.

Lets just call him Josh

I've known him from work

and I've always thought he's cute

the only thing is he has a boyfriend

I dont mess with people's boyfriends

things become even more complicated

now that I supervise his area

so basically it is just so impossible

to have a chance to be with him

I dont think anything can ever happen

but funny thing is, this past month we've

become closer, and I have a feeling

that he likes out coffee time too

and whenever we meet up

we chat and we joke around

we make fun of each other

and we laugh

he makes me laugh

but I guess I can't do anything

On the other hand,

my ex invited me to his birthday bbq

I'd come, and I feel like

Im slowly forgiving and forgetting

all the stuff he did

And at one point I really can

feel that I still do care about him.

And last night, I went out

I drank and I know

I was thinking of you, Josh

I dont want anybody else

I dont want the past

I want the future

Meanwhile it became obvious to me

that the love I had for my ex has changed

love changes its form

it evolves, and my love for you

has evolved, probably not yet completely,

but it is now becoming a respect and care.

I love you, respect and care about you.

Love always, mwa.

Ah Finally, First In 2010!

Hey Babes...

2010 at last! So far so good for me :)

Work is crazy busy, and super challenging

but Im loving it, it makes me feel useful.

So just a little flash back,

Xmas eve was super marvelous

spent with family, got to talk about

each other's plan for 2010

and it got messy fun at the end

after a long shot of vodka

Xmas was awesome

invited to Rob's fabulous xmas lunch

in his apartment in South Bank

with Rob's signature of high class dishes

and mega fine and expensive wine and champagne

all of that in his balcony with the view

facing directly to the Yarra River and Flinders St

and finally New Year's eve was a house party

and Closet NYE, which wasnt that bad

but I thought I could do better.

Apart from that Ive been working a lot

trying to be more impulsive

that means I've gone out more

Ive booked my flight to Tokyo

and I have a little crush on someone :)