Love Changes

So I have a crush on this boy.

Lets just call him Josh

I've known him from work

and I've always thought he's cute

the only thing is he has a boyfriend

I dont mess with people's boyfriends

things become even more complicated

now that I supervise his area

so basically it is just so impossible

to have a chance to be with him

I dont think anything can ever happen

but funny thing is, this past month we've

become closer, and I have a feeling

that he likes out coffee time too

and whenever we meet up

we chat and we joke around

we make fun of each other

and we laugh

he makes me laugh

but I guess I can't do anything

On the other hand,

my ex invited me to his birthday bbq

I'd come, and I feel like

Im slowly forgiving and forgetting

all the stuff he did

And at one point I really can

feel that I still do care about him.

And last night, I went out

I drank and I know

I was thinking of you, Josh

I dont want anybody else

I dont want the past

I want the future

Meanwhile it became obvious to me

that the love I had for my ex has changed

love changes its form

it evolves, and my love for you

has evolved, probably not yet completely,

but it is now becoming a respect and care.

I love you, respect and care about you.

Love always, mwa.