Epiphany?

Yeah pretty much I dont even know how to say

or spell the word correctly.

But yeah I found out that you only make good money in retail

if you become a sales manager.

And that takes ages to get there.

And I found out as well that doing

fashion degree in RMIT is about 2500 per semester

that would be achievable if I have a full time job

How am I supposed to study full time

and work full time too?

Can I just get money from somewhere?

Last night me and my friend from work

went for a drink and we thought of some ideas

like what I can do to get enough money from a part time job

we thought I should be a prostitute, like a high class prostitute

and he'd be my pimp, so he gotta start socializing with

rich high class society and get me some clients.

Our market would be European billionaire who are into asian.

So we made our line "Why go to Bangkok and Bali when you can have Jerome?"

Anyway back to fashion,

Ive been questioning a lot whether I have the talent or not

But I decided that may be this time I should

stop thinking too much about it, and instead

I would just do it because I love it.

Im just a lot insecure, and I realize something else

All this time, I kept thinking that guys who like me are losers.

If there is a guy who show any interest I would

start wondering if he was a loser.

And I didnt do it because Im a bitch

but because Im so insecure I dont think

any good guy or great guy would wanna be with me.